I have been

Presently, I feel more authentically secure than before and I am satisfied with the Wayback Machine. I think as kind and endearing thoughts as possible and take measures to avoid stress. I have incorporated more fruits into my diet, and spent time in prayer alone today. I have spent as much time off YouTube as possible and had a serene home cooked dinner. I haven’t been as obsessed with The Game as much but failing to feed digital animals doesn’t bother me like it used to. I’m ready to take on more than just self care. I watched Lindsey Sterling’s documentary Brave Enough and was amazed what dedication and passion and perseverance she has. I love having art in my life. The internet has blessed me with so much love and learnings, I am so glad right now. I have benefited so much from the beginning and the time is both priceless and immeasurable in my whirled. I love the world, let’s heal it of all the problems we caused it. That’s a more realistic wish than winning the lottery.

the fleeting thoughts that are unpoisoning me.

really love the new TOOL song, “Fear Inoculum”. I’m at my keyboard. you’re at your keyboard. (or mobile) we are connected. and it’s something you’ve always wanted. it’s agonizing watching your paranoias manifest in other universes. that’s what we say to me. I type it down for my process and posterity. Now to expel them I proceed with my treatment. The only thing that stands between me and fonder dreams is noise.

Joshua Gayou’s new book, “All Things Bestowed” is excellent. I recommend it.

I have been what I am, what I was

It’s resettling. Last time I said it was all coming together. One weird girl to make a whimsical whirled world. But I have consumed too much this cycle and losing weight is my burden. If I’m going til the Don’t Eat If You’re Not Hungry rule runs out, I wonder how far I can go. I’m already doing intermittent fasting. It’s done something that’s for sure. But I’ve found God, not that he was hiding, just that there’s more God now than last time. That’s how it seems. I don’t know. Perhaps I am full of it.

I gotta restore that database somehow and I will once I work out domain issues.